Just got back from Fong Seng after supper with Eric, Ying Qian, Rui Hoong and Jonas. Tonight, I just felt something very unusual, uneasy, somewhat weird about myself. When certain people are around me I feel easy going and normal, but there are times where the same people makes me uncomfortable and squirmish. I just don'y know what is happening to me. All, well most of the people around me are nice, fun going, cool people. Is it another bout of puppy love, of green envious eyes. I don't know. I really don't know. I know that I have one patiently, loyally waiting for me, but why am I feeling this? Should I keep a distance so that I can guard my heart? Won't it seem weird and funny? Or sholud I just go straight and tell the person what is troubling me and settle it, eventhough I may risk breaking the trust? Or I should pray and askBig Papa for guidance? Haiz... Victor has had a long day too. Isn't normal for him to lock himself in the room and distance himself from the surroundings. He even tore out all the pastings on his door. Was quite surprised the cute "Slippers here indicates I'm IN" was taken out too. Tried talking to him but he wasn't keen to open up, so I guess I cannot do much to help him, only pray for him. Will write a bible verse and paste it on his door later. Have been studying Electrical Engineering and Math for the night. Tough tough, but it is still managable. I was able to finish the first part of the E&E tutorial and close the gap on math again. Will study until I cannot take it then I will hit the sack. Saw the computing lab question and I was stumped. Never in my life computing has been this confusing and difficult. Must do more practice already. The consolation for me today is the fact that Dina is going to treat all of us to dessert on Saturday. I really hope it will be Ben N Jerry's. Have been craving for it for quite a while. We'll see this Saturday. Was just browsing through the quotes made by people, both famous and not, and I was really struck by one...
~And in the end, it's not the years in your life that counts. It's the life in your years~ Abraham Lincoln
Think about it people....
reflected @ 1:10 AM
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Name
Ivan
Course
Environmental Engineering@NUS
Loves
My heavenly Father
Bible
Family and Friends
Squash!
