Thought I will blog something since I'm already sien of studying and everything that I read cannot go into my head. It's an open book test and it's not that I'm doing that badly hehe I've got my resources all ready in my hands and hmm maybe need more answers to the past year papers so that I can go in and just copy down everything. :p In the Comm Hall now watching the seniors play takraw. They like got nothing better to do. Play and play the whole semester. Don't they have to study for their exams as well?? @@ Guess sports halls are like that, compared to the great mugging aura of PGP. Imagine Lin Sien, Jason, Ranvir, all the topscorers are there, mugging like mad, with no hall activities to worry about, no IHG training haha. But, I'm not complaining that much either. I prefer the atmosphere of togetherness, everybody going out to eat, to play DOTA haha. Well, today has been a semi-productive day for me. Got to do work in the afternoon and early at nite. Other than that it was either staring into space or feeling sleepy. It started at 9, after breakfast. I thought that I will start work at 11 in the library so at the mean time I watched lots and lots of youtube videos :p 11am ....went to the library to jio Dina studying there. I guess I'm a loner/hermit because I could not study at all. All the whispering and the phone ringing made me go mad and in the end I decided to go back after 2 hours of failure to mug anything. Upon reaching back, the C1 people managed to cajoule me to play WTF, but I guess it worked wonders. :D After the 2 games, I could study all the way to 6 pm before going to the gym to sweat out all the junk I ate for lunch :p Did quite a workout with Victor for an hour before dinner =) Then it was study and study for an hour before I succumbed to the mental state I'm in now. Oh well should not stress too much right? I have studied and I should not be stressed or afraid. Will always remember what my mom told me...Be anxious for nothing but with prayer and thanksgiving, let your request be known unto God and the peace of God which passeth all understanding will keep your heart and mind...=) All the best everyone for their exams...God bless!! :D
reflected @ 10:05 PM
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November 27, 2006
After days of solitary, I'm back from the high mountains of my room. And I have math exam today!! Lalalala the 2nd out of the 5 exams that i have this week. Hmm can't wait until Saturday 11.00 am when I finish my computing test. It will be OVER!!! Well for the next one month or so...then it will be time to pump iron and train for IHG :p Ahhh math...limits, surface integrals, differential equations...been hearing and doing it for the past one week or so. It does me good I hope for this test :p Oh well, so much for crapping, now for the icing on the cake, I'm going to finish up differential equation for good haha All the best to everyone!!
reflected @ 9:49 AM
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November 23, 2006
Behind these brown eyes... Lies sadness and disappointment... Lies memories and moments...
Alas it was not meant to be... But I have to honour and obey my parents...
It is hard not getting your way... It takes all the guts in the world... To put up with it... With a brave face...
Friends we are meant to be... Just friends...
*Blog will be inactive for awhile*
reflected @ 8:00 PM
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November 22, 2006
Nice Song by Josh Groban
This from his newest album. And I want it!!! Enjoy...
Don't give up It's just the weight of the world When your heart's heavy, I I will lift it for you Don't give up Because you want to be heard If silence keeps you, I, I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood Well, I can hear you Everybody wants to be loved Don't give up Because You Are Loved
Don't give up It's just the hurt that you hide When you're lost inside, I'll, I'll be there to find you Don't give up Because you want to burn bright If darkness blinds you, I, I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood Well, I can hear you Everybody wants to be loved Don't give up Because You Are Loved
reflected @ 12:08 PM
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It rained heavily this evening and I suddenly had this urge to just run into the rain and let the rain drench me. It's been a while since I played in the rain. Ahhh the refreshing rain, just washes away all the worries. I still remember the last time I played in the rain. It was during football with my friends. We wanted to stop, but the rain was so fun that we did not stop :D We played for 2 hours before we got scolded hehe. But seriously, it was fun fun fun. I can't wait for the exams to end so that I can bathe and play with the rain water again :D You people should try it. It is really really fun. The best way to chill out =)
reflected @ 12:19 AM
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November 20, 2006
Ivan is confused... Has he changed? Or has something happened to the people around him? Ivan is confused...
Some who seem so near last time... Seem so distant now... Like we have not even met before... Or we are just 'Hi', 'Bye' friends...
Is Ivan changing? Has he become a loner? Has he changed into a part monster... Where everyone is scared about?
To Ivan, everything is fine... Just the people around him are changing... Ivan has not changed a bit... So, he is confused...
Can anyone explain to him? Can anyone tell him? And not leave him in te cold cold night... Of uncertainty...
reflected @ 12:46 AM
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November 19, 2006
After two and a half hours of playing DOTA and CS last night, it's time to mug the whole day again. Sundays just seem to be the ideal day to study. It's been proven too. I've been able to study in my room the whole day on Sundays for the past 3 weeks. Cool right haha. Anyway, last nights DOTA game was cool :D Played Lina and had si much fun ks-ing people with laguna, especially Lin Sien :p Not playing against human so, nevermind la haha. Then went to play CS after that. We kept on playing and playing until the moth in Lin Sien's room stopped the game, resulting in me sleeping at 3.30 am last nite and waking up at 10 this morning :p Well, have to keep up with the work already, Work hard to all the people who are going to take their exams next week :)
reflected @ 10:55 AM
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November 17, 2006
Today is the last day of the semester before study break kicks in. This is the time where all the students will switch on their mugger mode and have books, lecture notes, past year questions and papers in front of them. Gone will be supper, late nights, just for the one week plus exams. I'm just taking it one at a time. EG 1108 first, then followed by MA 1505, PC 1431, CM 1502, and lastly CS 1101C. Quite happy today, I could understand what the tutor was talking about in Chemistry, Physics and Math =) Well, but still must work hor. Was reading the last chapter of chemistry...wah, abstract....surface free energy??adsorbtion??absorbtion??everything sounds the same haha. Well, we will see tomorrow during lecture. Got to go get some sleep. I have been awake a bit too long..hehe Nitez everyone
reflected @ 3:09 AM
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November 15, 2006
Just finished my PE...Practical Exam for CS1101C, not Physical Education. How I wish it WAS physical education. At least I will be able to do better :p Anyway, woke up in the morning at 6.45...went to bathe, breakfast with victor then went to our respective venues. Was relieved to see my classmate, Hui Xian there. One friend to share notes with hahaha....The test was delayed for 15 minutes because all of us could not log in into the computer. Throughout the exam...I was kind of stoning all the way, while watching other people in amazement. There was one guy in front of me and he wrote about 200 lines of codes, compared to mine, which was only 55 lines. But I was happy that it could compile :) I had made it through the rain, wet but unscathed and I will work on for the end-of-semester exam...after one round of DOTA...hehe :p
reflected @ 10:56 AM
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November 13, 2006
I don't know whether this will anger some people, but to me it is just plain silly. Came back from the library today and opened the STAR to read the news. The headline was about the Perak mufti being in the limelight because of an SMS sent to him concerning the baptism of Muslim people, which was supposedly held at the Church of Our Lady of Lourdes in Silibin on the 5th of November, including Datuk Azhar Mansoor(the guy who sailed around the world). Apparently some of the hardcore Muslims were unhappy and they created a commotion at the church. Come on la, what is wrong with you people. If one wants to switch religion, let it be. Where is the freedom to make decisions then? Baptising Muslim people is wrong???Is the action so wrong(if it really happened) until the Mufti had to hand over the matter to the police?Haiz....
reflected @ 4:23 PM
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I know I have been inactive these few days on my blog. Well, it's because I've been going through a lot during those days. Frustrating days, angry days, stoning days, you name it all, I've been through it. Last night was kind of the last straw for me. I tried to do the past year papers and it WAS very tough. And I was beaten down to the ground by it. During that period, I remember being a hermit, ignoring people and just trying to solve the problem. Finally, I came to the brink of my patience and I just broke. Even when my parents called on skype, I sounded cold to them. Guess I felt bad after that and called them again, apologised and got their prayers and encouragement. But still the fear, the insecureness lingered for quite some time, so I directed my fears to msn. Really really sorry ya Ying Qian, I sounded very cold and ignored you for some time. But then, after some time, it just struck me...it's only CS1101C. What in the whole wide world can it do to me?Kill me?Injure me?...I have been to taken in by it. Oh man, that was the breakthrough that I needed. Changed the topic and did math instead...it was a good session of math, eventhough I haven't solved the last question :p
I will not be moved and I will say of the Lord that You are my shield and my strength.
*Ying Qian: Thank you ya for trying to cheer this particularly stubborn male species =) *Pris: Eventhough we only chatted for a while, but it seemed like it was for hours :) Love ya loads ya...hugs and kisses coming your way *Dina: Terima kasih for the encouragement and the choc cookies...they were heavenly =) *Victor: Arigato for the Word and the lui cha and the aloe vera drink =) *Eric: Your essay....may it pass with flying colours :p
reflected @ 10:14 AM
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November 06, 2006
The end is imminent... I don't know if I will be able to stay... All the hardwork, all the time and effort... It's all going down the drain... Because I just dont get the gist, the feel, the understanding... Like how a retard does not get the point...
The latest one... The serpent in the garden of Eden... And me the guilible Eve... It's good to the eyes to finish the tutorial... But not understand it...
That one mistake... The whole day... Everything of me... Slowly drifts away into solitary...
Now, it's just how long it would take... To the end..
reflected @ 2:36 PM
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Man this game is soooooooooooooooooooo fun!!! Easily one of the better destressing games, compared to DOTA or CS ... All you have to do is poke the sleeping orge and then PANIC, RUN!!! haha had great fun playing with Eric, Victor and Rui Hoong last nite... Take my advice...try it out and you will be unstressed haha
reflected @ 9:37 AM
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November 05, 2006
Auld Lang Syne
'Auld Lang Syne'....a song sang by students for their teachers when the latter retires from the teaching scene or when a loved one passes away. Yesterday was the first time I hear that song...... {Flashback} After a few rounds of BINGO with the old folks at Orange Valley, I was just chatting with one of the old folks , then the helpers brought an elderly woman and sat her next to me. I don't know what struck me, but her expression showed a lot of pain and her smiles are just something to cover it up. I was also told that she was a former teacher. Anyway, after we sang 'Peng You' and 'Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin', Zhang Hu said he could play 'Auld Lang Syne'. We were just enjoying the song when I noticed that she was tearing and just crying and crying. I just asked the woman opposite her, and she told me that she loved her husband very much and this song brought back memories of him, eventhough he has passed away. What a touching scene...
reflected @ 10:08 AM
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November 04, 2006
Used up nearly the whole day doing computing and especially the CM 1502 lab report. Woke up in the morning and then started on arrays after breakfast. Wah, finally, I understand how to use arrays!!:D Tried to write out a programme on arrays, to input the arrays and print the output, well it was quite satisfying hehe. Went out for lunch with Eric and Victor before my class. Paiseh, because I was like 15 minutes late and they were painfully waiting for me, watching bus after bus passing without me inside :p *Sorry ya Vic and Eric. Anyway, chemistry lecture was fun, getting to know all the types of shapes of molecules, trigonal planar, see-saw, square pyramidal etc etc. Brings back memories of jc when Mrs. Ong used to teach us that =)
After class, slept for 15 minutes before starting on the CM 1502 lab report. So many graphs and tables to draw and decimal places to calculate. T.T Well, did the lab report until about 4.45, couldn't take it anymore, I went to play badminton with Vic,Rui Hoong and Ying Qian. Letting all the sweat come out was refreshing and made me destress.
Sadly, I still had to complete the lab report too after dinner. I told myself 'You WILL finish this lab report today, even if it means sleeping late', and that spurred me to one of the best lab report I did, well it seems to lah, just to soothe myself from the fact that I spent nearly 8 hours doing it :p
Then, it was 15 minutes of gym for me :D Eventhough it was a short period, ahhh the bulging muscles growing haha I'm going to be the next Arnold Schwawhateverhisnameis haha going again today. Haha Supper was next with Eric, Victor and Ying Qian...the still blur and sleepy girl hahaha...
Next was...sleep ZzZzZzZzZz
reflected @ 8:49 AM
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November 02, 2006
I wonder how did I manage to stay awake until 6 am this morning and I am still not feeling the effects of less sleep. Was actually planning to sleep at about 2 am after going for a drink with Victor and Ying Qian. Then a funny thing happened. I could not seem to go to sleep. Was tossing and turning on my bed without avail. In the end, I jumped out of bed and went to do my lab report instead, chatting with Ying Qian and watching lame youtube videos :p Finally at about 5.30 am I managed to force myself to sleep because had to wake up at 8.30 to go marketing haha
8.30 am...my handphone alarm woke me up and I was wide awake instantly. Then Kok Soon messaged me tellinge that he has a headache and cannot follow me to the market. Stranded!!having to go to the market alone to buy groceries? Its like asking a 5 year old to drive a car haha Anyway, someone had to do it, so I slogged in the market and to Sheng Shiong to get the ingredients needed for OFM. Finally, at 9.45, I managed to grab the stuff needed and caught a taxi home. Rushed to put the chicken and fish into the freezer, took a quick shower and rushed to EG 1108 lecture. Phew, managed to get there on time.
I'm surprised this whole day, I managed to stay alert for all the classes and lectures. Wow, must be the extra adrenaline from the night before haha
4.00pm...class ends and I rush back to the hall to start cooking my chicken curry =) Victor was there helping me to chop the onions and stuff. Poor him, chop onions until cry. Thanks ya Victor. Then, Hui-En and Daniel came to cook their respective dishes. Wah, Daniel can really cook!! His fish is superb, can rival the restaurant dish :D We all had a good time fellowshipping and joking around unti lit was about 9 pm. Came back, took a bathe, talked to my darling then watched an episode of drawn together with Eric and now I'm going to get my long awaited rest.
Nitez everyone...
reflected @ 9:56 PM
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Name
Ivan
Course
Environmental Engineering@NUS
Loves
My heavenly Father
Bible
Family and Friends
Squash!